|
God forgive me by Kesha Beautiful she seemed. Carrying her baby down the school hallway. "Bye Bye Baby, I love you" She said as she walked out the daycare. She sighed "I'm gonna be alright" no one knew why she kept repeating it...again and again. "I'm gonna be alright". Then she got into her mother's care and rode to "Atlanta Surgiclinic" No, she didn't have a terminal disease, she wasn't visiting anyone, so what was she doing? She walked into the waiting room and filled out forms, gave the clerk $300 and walked into the back. She's gettin an ultra sound for $300? Tears startin flowin from her eyes and as she was getting anesthitic, she folded her hands and said a prayer. " God, Please forgive me for doing this, I don't know what else to do or where to go, If I kept this little one she wouldn't live a good life..Please understand, I know you will. Keep her safe as I send her to you" She rubbed her stomach and aplogized once again. "I never meant to hurt you, if I wasn't 17 I would have you...If I had the right resources and people who could love and accept you I'd have you...Even though mommy has to let you go I'm putting you in God's hands" She read the notes saying "I'm only one month but I have all my organs and you're heartbeat is my favorite lullaby" She cried everyday and felt pain when she slept. She looked at her 11 month old and made sure she was always safe, because she didn't want God to take her away. Everyday the misery got to her, everyday she cried and couldn't let go of the fact that she let a doctor rip that baby from her stomach. Rip a child's life away.... My friends dont hear me out, My mama doesn't respond to my tears..So I'm writing to ya'll cuz I know someone on here will be real with me. I'm lost and confused. |