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Dear God dear god,im yet to understand.... how can u let so much happen, to such a lil'man. they say u only give, as much as we can handle... but why do u keep givin, when hes barely livin? im not supposed to question u, yet i have to. transfussion after transussion, an the doctors are without a clue. such a "wonderful" God, what are u to do? every day i thank u, for not takin him that day. but, i really need some answers, like how long is he here to stay? im losin so much sleep, wakin up, just to check his heart beat. so dear God, please forgive me, for doubting u. but at the moment, i dont understand the things u do. like why u would give him to me, to only take him away. some people may argue, ur greatness, so great. but im not so sure, why havent u let there be a cure? im supposed to let it all lay in ur hands.... is that what u want? is that ur plan? i must admit, im giving up. so scared for him, that i myself, dont know what to do to win. dear God, i hope u understand. i need ur guidance, to find ur plan. so what i need most, at ur will... is faith an forgiveness that we all must feel. please help my son, to be strong an brave. so sorry for everything ive said, but if u must have an angel, please take me instead. i know ive not been the best christian.... with everything said an done. but id trade u me for him, if thats whats needed done. theres plenty people here to give him love an care.... so dear God, please try to understand. im just a young mother, fighting for her lil'man. ~blu |