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Gangstyle and Me
WHEN I FIRST CAME TO THIS SITE I WAZ GREETED BY A COUPLE WELL WISHERS. WELL ACTUALLY LISTA, JEY AND SHADOW.. AND OVER THE YEARS I HAVE COME TO CALL THEM AND MANY MORE MY G~SPOT FAMILIA. WHEN I NEED SUMONE THEY ARE THERE AND I AM THERE THE SAME. BUT WHEN I FIRST FOUND THIS SITE I WAZ LOST.. MEANING THAT I COULDN'T EVEN FIND MYSELF.

I HAD GOTTEN OUTTA THE GAME FOR MY KIDZ AND ATTEMPTED TO CHANGE MY LIFE. I WAZ GOIN' TO COLLEGE AND RAISIN MY BABIES THE BEST I COULD. THEIR DAD WAZ IN THE PROCESS OF BEIN SENTENCED TO 12- 20 YEARS IN A PENINTENTIARY BECUZ HE DIDN'T GET OUT WHEN I DID. SO I HAD A LOT TO DEAL WIT....... I HAD MOVED TO GET MY KIDZ AWAY FRUM THE DRAMA AND MY HOOD AND BACK TO SAFETY... AFTER 3 MOVES I FINALLY WAZ AWAY BUT YET NO ONE UNDERSTOOD HERE WHAT I WAZ GOIN' THRU. NO ONE HAD BEEN ON THE STREETS.... NO ONE HAD LIVED LIKE I HAD....NO ONE HAD ALMOST DIED LIEK I DID... AND NO ONE LOOKED LIKE I DID. EVEN THO I WAZ ! OUT THE GAME AND STR8 WIT 2 KIDS I COUDLN'T WALK DOWN THA STREETS WITHOUT GETTIN WEIRD LOOKS AN COMMENTS. CUYZ EVEN THO I LEFT MY HOOD AND MY GANGLYFE I STILL HAD IT IN ME.. AND I CAN'T CHANGE WHATZ INSIDE ALL THE WAY.. BUT I HAD TO PUT MY ENERGY INTO SUMTHIN NEW. AND SO I DID.

I SAW WHAT THIS SITE WAZ ABOUT HELPIN G'S AND EX G'S AND I WAZ AMAZED BY THE LOVE AND CARING AMONG EVERYONE. SO I WANTED TO HELP .. I WANTED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE I WANTED TO SAVE SUM OF OUR YOUTH WHO WERE MAKIN THE WRONG CHOICES AND WERE GONNA LIVE LIKE WE DID. I DIDN;T WANT THAT I WANTED THEM TO SEE SUMTHIN DIFFERENT. SO I WAZ BLESSED WIT JOININ THE GANGSTYLE TEAM AND I WILL NEVER TURN BACK. I TALK TO YOU ALL MORE THAN MY OWN FAMILIA. AND WHEN I HAVE A PROBLEM.. I COME HERE. BECUZ U ALL LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND. U CAN UNDERSTAND BECUZ YOU CAME FRUM WHERE I CAME FRUM AND WE BEEN THRU THA SAME THANGZ. BUT THE MOST AMAZING THANG ABOUT THIS SITE WAZ THE FACT IT DIDN'T MATTER WHERE YOU WERE! FRUM, WHAT YOU CLAIMED, WHAT RACE YOU WERE, OR WHAT COLOR YOU CLAIMED OR USED TO CLAIM. WE WERE ALL THE SAME. ITZ THE ONLY PLACE I EVER FOUND THAT HAD NO COLOR LINES!!! EVERYONE IS EQUAL AND TREATED THAT WAY! I LUV IT..

I HAVE GAINED SO MUCH FRUM THIS SITE AND IF IT WAZN'T FOR THIS SITE I DUNNO WHERE I WOULD BE. RIGH NOW I AM FINSIHIN UP MY DEGREE IN EDUCATION SO I CAN WORK WIT TROUBLED YOUTH AND I AM SENDING MY SON TO KINDERGARTEN THIS FALL AND MY BABY GIRL IS GROWIN UP. I HAVE LEFT HE HOOD BUT I HAVEN'T FORGOT WHERE I CAME FRUM!!!!! I NEVER WILL. BUT I GOT SUMTHIN MORE POSITIVE IN MAH LYFE NOW AND THIS SITE AHS SHOWN ME THAT.

I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE ANG RISE ABOVE SOCIETIES EXPECTATIONS OF A G. WE HAVE A VOICE AND WE WILL BE HEARD. IN A POSITIVE LIGHT. SURE EVERY NOW AND THEN I GET THE URGE TO GO BACK AND DO WHAT I WAZ DOIN' BUT I NOW REALIZE EVERYOEN DOES AND IT IS HOW WE ACT ON THOSE URGES THAT EITHER BRINGS US UP OR BRINGS US BACK DOWN. I AM GOIN' UP AND NOT GOIN DOWN AGAIN. ITZ NOT WORTH IT. I VALUE LYFE SO MUCH MORE NOW AND THIS SITE AND THOSE ON IT HAVE SHOWN ME THAT. I HAVE MET SUM GREAT PPL AND MADE SUM LASTING RELATIONSHIPS. I LUV YA ALL AND THANKZ 2 YOU I ! AM WHERE I AM TODAY AND I WILL ALWAYZ BE HERE FO YOU ALL!!! SO HOLLER AT YOUR SISTER!!!!! LIL'MAC